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Now is the summer of our discotheque @Elizafox

@sungo I know. I sometimes wonder when my depression will come back. I hope it doesn't.

If I suddenly become withdrawn or something though, yeah, that's what's happened.

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Samizdata ✔ @Samizdata@octodon.social

@Elizafox @sungo Fingers crossed that doesn't happen.

Now is the summer of our discotheque @Elizafox

@sungo The weird thing with me is, it just suddenly comes back. Like WHAM. Instant. And I'm fucked for days and I begin the "death spiral" in short order.

Sometimes it has triggers like things that upset me or bad arguments. Sometimes it just happens after reading a bad story. Sometimes it just happens.

It *REALLY* sucks.

Samizdata ✔ @Samizdata@octodon.social

@Elizafox @sungo I just wish it ever left me. Of course, most times I have such an energy debt from pretending to not be depressed in public, it just makes it worse during alone time.

Now is the summer of our discotheque @Elizafox

@Samizdata @sungo Trying to appear normal to family and friends is the hardest part. And it is fucking exhausting emotionally and physically. I often sleep way too long from it.

Now is the summer of our discotheque @Elizafox

@sungo Things I thought would trigger it, like a heated discussion with a roommate earlier along with a concurrent heated discussion about a policy detail on mst3k, didn't do it this time. Before antidepressants it often would be a trigger. I didn't let it get to me though, for the first time in far too long.

So that's Promising™. I hope.

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