@sungo I know what that is unfortunately. I've had lots of bipolar friends.
Depression rendered me a shell of my former self that by all accounts used to be rather nice, but became bitter and occasionally rude to people from just getting angry for no reason... it was the only thing I could really feel.
I sought treatment way too late. I alienated a lot of people through sheer apathy of maintaining the friendship or my outbursts.
I lost 6 years to depression. 2,190 days ± 365.
@sungo My depression got so bad at times I was psychotic. I believed people hated me when they didn't. I thought they were conspiring against me behind my back. I thought people were only friends with me for personal gain. All delusional beliefs not supported by fact.
@sungo I don't know how my partner put up with it for so long.
Actually, due to a really bad psychotic episode after a bad breakup (dropped for no reason at all, one day it was fine and the next *poof*), I alienated my best friend for a year. That best friend later became my partner.
@sungo I would occasionally accuse people of grand conspiracies against me or things that weren't really true. That was part of the anger; believing people were out to get me.